Subscription Fatigue
You look at your bank statement and it's just this endless list of things you have to keep paying for every month. Software, streaming, gym memberships. The moment you stop paying, the service cuts off. You lose access.
But we don't just apply this model to our wallets. We apply it to our own psychology. We treat self-improvement like a subscription service. If I want to be calm, I have to pay with daily meditation. If I want to be fit, I have to pay with hours at the gym. And if I stop paying that discipline tax for even a week, I lose the asset. It's gone.
It's an incredibly exhausting way to live. It implies that your baseline state is somehow broken and you have to constantly rent a better version of yourself.
What if spiritual connection wasn't a subscription you pay for with willpower, but an asset you actually own? Like buying a car with lifetime charging included.
The Meditation Paradox
Maximum Discipline
Zero Connection
She's the ultimate super-user of life. Highly disciplined, extremely organized, an efficiency machine. Color-coded calendars, to-do lists for her to-do lists. She manages household, finances, career—everything with absolute precision.
"I can't for the life of me get meditation. Even when I sit down, the connection just isn't there."
Minimum Discipline
Consistent Connection
Disorganized, pretty random. Discipline is definitely not his strength. If life was a subscription service, his payments would be bouncing every month. He's chaotic.
"I've been able to meditate for 45 years. I never found it too hard to connect when I wanted to. The access was always there."
The Equation Breaks Down
Subject A has maximum discipline and zero connection. Subject B has minimum discipline and consistent connection. If you look at these two data points side-by-side, the equation discipline = results completely breaks down.
There has to be a missing variable.
Guindy Engineering: The Catalyst
College of Engineering, Guindy, India — 1978
The Skeptic: An 18-year-old nicknamed "Quantum." Obsessed with Richard Feynman, quantum mechanics, electron spin. A fierce rationalist who believed the universe was purely mechanical. If you couldn't measure it with a ruler or an equation, it didn't exist. He had specific disdain for religious markings—saw them as signs of illogical, weak minds.
The Mentor: A young PhD candidate standing next to a Royal Enfield motorcycle. Tall, good-looking, clean-shaven face literally shining. Wearing an immaculate well-ironed white half-sleeve shirt and full white pants. But here's the twist—he wore Pattai Vibhuti, those prominent religious ash stripes on his forehead.
The arrogant teenager decided to poke holes in this "religious guy's" worldview. He wanted to mock him, destroy him with facts and logic.
But the PhD candidate didn't quote scripture. He didn't say "you just have to have faith."
Instead, he met the skeptic exactly where he was. He answered every single question using pure logic. He dismantled the author's arguments using the author's own toolset: rationality and engineering principles. It was like a master engineer talking to a mechanic.
The bubble burst. This person in the white shirt and ash wasn't illogical—he was operating on a level of logic the teenager hadn't even accessed yet.
The mentor was a Siddha Purusha—a perfected being, a realized soul. Someone who had completed the game. He could drop into Samadhi at will, like flipping a light switch. His challenge wasn't entering peace; it was coming out of it to do normal chores.
Two Ways to Move the Mind
Method A: The Shepherd
Like a shepherd driving sheep into a pen. You have to bark orders, use a stick, force the sheep to go where they don't want to go. The moment you look away, the sheep scatter.
Method B: The Bird
Like a bird coming to roost in its own nest. Do you have to force a bird to go home at sunset? No, it wants to go there. The bird isn't forced; it's pulled. It's a magnetic attraction to home.
Subject A is working hard to push the river.
Subject B found the current and is floating.
The Tesla Metaphor
The early Tesla models came with lifetime supercharging. You pay for the car once—or in this case, you receive the grace—and the energy is free forever.
Subscription Model
Pay monthly with discipline. Miss a payment, lose access. Constant maintenance required. Anxiety about slipping up.
Lifetime Charging
One-time installation. Energy flows freely. Can be neglected for years. Signal never dies. An owned asset.
The 45-Year Stress Test:
The author admits he wasn't a perfect yogi. He "drove the car to Vegas," stopped practicing for years at a time, was inconsistent. He did all the things that in a subscription model would result in losing access.
But the signal never died. 45 years later, it's still there.
The Missing Variable
During those hangouts by the Royal Enfield, something happened. The skeptic didn't just learn logic—he got activated.
He received a charge. A transmission.
In the tradition, they call it Krupa—Grace.
Once that higher center was opened, the pull began. That's why he never found it too hard to meditate for the next 45 years. He wasn't pushing the sheep; he was just letting the bird fly home.
The ability to connect isn't something you do. It's something you have.
The Anonymous Siddha
This mentor, this Siddha Purusha, has absolutely zero digital footprint. No Facebook, no Instagram, no LinkedIn, no photos online. In 2026, that's basically being a ghost. He remains completely anonymous. He doesn't want the fame.
So how does someone access this transmission if they can't hang out by a Royal Enfield in India in 1978?
The mentor wrote one book: Yoga, Enlightenment and Perfection. Interestingly, it's not about himself—it's about his own guru.
The Railway Track Protocol:
Years later, the author gave this book to another young engineer—someone who never met the mentor, never saw the Royal Enfield, never got the physical presence. He just had the text.
That student described the book as "the railway track he runs his spiritual life on." He became a spiritual teacher himself, all guided by this one book from an anonymous author.
The charge can transmit remotely. It can be encoded in words. The text acts as the carrier wave for the transmission.
About the Book
Tesla = Dhyāna: Self-Driving to the Self
In the spirit of Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, Tesla = Dhyāna bridges the perceived chasm between high-technology and ancient inquiry. Written by a veteran technologist and project management leader, this narrative follows a self-described "Quantum Skeptic"—an 18-year-old rationalist obsessed with Feynman and logic—whose world is upended by a chance encounter with a Siddha Purusha beside a Royal Enfield motorcycle.
Decades later, the author uses the lens of Artificial Intelligence and the engineering marvels of the 21st century to decode the mechanics of the soul. It is a journey that moves from the cold metrics of Large Language Models and brainwave monitors to the profound realization that the mind, much like a Tesla, possesses an inherent, autonomous capacity for stillness once the "destination" is set by a higher power.
At the heart of the book is a radical central thesis: spiritual awareness is not a labor-intensive "maintenance" project, but a "Lifetime Charge" of Grace that survives even death. By contrasting the biological resistance of the "monkey mind" with the seamless efficiency of Full Self-Driving (FSD) technology, the author explores how meditation evolves from a forced struggle into a natural, effortless inward pull known as Pratyak Pravahata. Merging Adi Shankara's 8th-century commentaries with modern tech metaphors, Tesla = Dhyāna culminates in a profound Ancient Wisdom Unlock, revealing that the ultimate path is powered by Grace and guided by the timeless Wisdom of the Upanishads.
Book Outline
Part I: The Setup — Man, Machine, and Metaphor
Establishes the author's authority and introduces the core metaphor that drives the book.
- ▸ Chapter 1: About Myself
- ▸ Chapter 2: How I Came Up With the Analogy
- ▸ Chapter 3: The Actual Analogy Explained
- ▸ Chapter 4: Objections and Responses
Part II: The Dashboard — Metrics and Misconceptions
Applies an engineering mindset to demystify meditation, using data and AI to validate spiritual states.
- ▸ Chapter 5: Yoga ≠ Yoga; Meditation ≠ Meditation
- ▸ Chapter 6: Can You Measure Meditation?
- ▸ Chapter 7: Exploring AI to Brainstorm Meditation Topics
- ▸ Chapter 8: The Meditation Monitor
Part III: The Journey — Obstacles and Assurance
Addresses the universal struggles of the seeker and provides the theological assurance that the "car" will keep driving.
- ▸ Chapter 9: Why Is Meditation Hard?
- ▸ Chapter 10: Who Doesn't Have Arjuna's Problem?
- ▸ Chapter 11: The Failed Yogi (The Assurance)
Part IV: The Destination — Ancient Wisdom Unlock
The spiritual climax where the metaphor is abandoned for the Truth it points to.
- ▸ Chapter 12: Who's Going to Buy You the Tesla?
- ▸ Chapter 13: The Two Birds (The Setup)
- ▸ Chapter 14: Analogy Fulfilled
Listen to Chapter One
Experience a deep dive into the first chapter—a podcast conversation exploring the meditation paradox, the Quantum Skeptic's journey, and the lifetime charging metaphor. Perfect for your commute or quiet reflection time.
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